Hey what's up. It's 2019 yo. Half of the year already. Not a good start for my 2019, quite sad but life must go on. I broke up with my baby d :( we broke up on 4th December. I love him, really really. Until now, I'm still waiting for him. Hoping his name will pop out again in my phone, always pray to god to convey my miss to him. I didn't put blame 100% on him. It was fault. Because I am so stupid. I cant even control my anger, I cant control my jealousy. I'm so sorry baby... Istg, I regret it.

                 This was my first relationship ever that I almost being "crazy. So I decided to stop it before it's going to be worse. But deep down in my heart I dont want, I dont want. I'm so bad. I just lepaskan semua marah kat you. Selama ni you selalu sabar dengan i, tak pernah marah or cakap kasar.  Until you fedup that night. I still remembered that night when i mengamuk ngamuk kat dia, pastu i menangis, pastu elok balik then ulang balik, like seriously I felt so fucking crazy. Then I mintak break sebab i rasa i dah gila and dia terus cakap "up to you" and I know dia dah fedup sebab selama ni dia yg banyak mempertahankan our relationship. Dia cakap dia pening semua lah. For the first time dia cakap kasar. It s true what people said "marahnya orang yg sabar" I jadi macam tu sebab you dah kurangkan masa untuk i, kalau busy kerja takpe i faham. Tapi you lebih lebihkan kawan yg you baru kenal, dah tak nak main berdua je game dengan i, mesti dorang pun ada. Time tengah gaduh malam tu pun sempat you cakap pasal dorang. Tak focus langsung, tak pujuk pun. Mana la i tak mengamuk. Hmmm.

                Little did you know, its been 5 months since we broke up I still miss you, every times, every single day, every night. You know that my ego is so fucking high, but I lowered my ego begging you to spent your time for me in the night, only me and you. But what you have done? Hm nevermind. I just want you to know it all happened because I love you too much. You different from others. Kalau i boleh control marah mesti semua ni takkan jadi kan baby. Tapi benda dah jadi, dah tak boleh buat pape. I miss our late night talk, lagi lagi bila i dah mengantuk you mesti cakap suara i macam orang tengah mabuk haha. My baby is so cute tau. Perangai dia pelik pelik. I hope you're happy now, find a girl that you like okay baby. Im happy if you happy. You still my baby in my heart, i wont call others guy baby hahaha.

Hello :D


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