Hm hm. What happen to me actually? Tetiba aku jadi macam 2 years ago. When i was in form 4. Akhir tahun. Why why why?! Too weak. I cant. It takes time. Sometimes i dont understand with myself. I can do something that i want and they cant. Its not fair. Not fair at all. I know its my fault. Yes so sorry for those who involved. And when someone do the same thing and i just cant accept. Its hard for me. I always said to myself that i do the same thing, its might make me cry. After wake up from sleep suddenly the thing came into my mind. Erghh please la. I think too much and slowly kill me. I need time.

The other thing that make me tension. Faris and juz. What wrongs with you guys actually? Emm lets talk about f first, ...he ask me about ameng. Actually he dont know anything about ameng, i never told him. He also dont know that i've broke up with ameng. Hari tu dye tanya
Him: kau dah berapa tahun dgn ameng?
Me: hahahaha entah
Him: aik entah? Time dengan aku dulu kau bukan main lagi ingat eh
Me: emm actually..
Him: kenapa? Cerita la
Me: takde ape lah. Abaikan je. Kau tak ngantuk ke?
Him: dah clash eaaa? :*
Me: kau pahal buad emoticon camtu
Him: tersalah tekan. Aku nak amik yg bawah tu

Err. So annoying okay. Then tak lama tu dye cakap
Him: be mine back ;)
Me: tak nak lah. Aku sayang ameng
Him: ohh hmm. Takpe lah kalau kau dah cakap macam tu kan. Kenapa break?
Me: entah lahh..
Him: story lah..
Me: malas lah
Him: takpe lah kalau camtu. Betul kau tak nak getback dgn aku?
Me: tak nak. Aku serik

Hahahahh time ni dye sentap gila. Uuuuu ade aku kisah. Aku cakap benda betul doe. Lepas dye cakap pasal sentap tu, he said lagi "now i've already matured. give me a chance maybe? i know its my fault".  Sorry to say, i never trust you anymore. Sweet talker. You hurt me before. No way lah i nak getback dengan kau balik kan. Macam aku penah cakap dulu "we're never ever getting back together". Tbh aku tak benci kau tapi aku tak nak dgn kau dah. And i said to him "past is past. Aku dgn ameng mmg lah dah tak couple tapi aku sayang dye, kitorang still contact" and he said "ameng ameng ameng, now you can throw me far away in your life. I know im not important to you. You already had someone that can make you happy. Semoga kekal dgn dye :) bye"
Then i tak balas dah.

Pasal juz pulak. Hari tu dye cakap kat aku dye undur diri. And suddenly dye dtg balik. Wth. Dye msg aku time malam em malam masa aku and ameng cakap pasal gambar. Uish memang tak le aku nak layan. Err. Tak faham lah aku. Aku tak penah terfikir nak ade pape lebih dgn kawan. Nak kawan biasa je kot tp orang tu pulak nak lebih. Tak payah kawan lagi bagus. Buad serabut palotak je.

Hmm..serabut sarabut pon kepala otak aku, im still sad. Dah dua hari but i still sedih. Aku nak keluar lepak pon susah. Dorang form6 balik lambat and dorang dah balik tempat study dorang balik. Im not easily to accept the fact. I need time. Sorry for all. And sorry for being selfish. I know its my fault. I need time to chill my heart. So sorry for everythings. Assalamualaikum

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