My life is hard. Way harder. I'm so fucking stress. When everyone keep pushing me. It  makes me feel like.....I just want to stay away from everyone. Each and everyone of you. When you cant even make a decision and choice. So just let all of them go. It hurts me so bad. Why cant you guys understand me? Nothing to regret. Sigh.... I do love you ameng. Yes I do. I want you. But..why you keep forcing me. I've told you before, if said NO that's mean NO. I still love you no matter what happened. Just my feelings was not the same as before, I still sayang you kot. It happens so sudden. Maybe because we always fight over stupid things. It just a small thing sayang. Why we need to fight because of that? And ya I know, after we fight it was my fault. Contact with other guy, on the phone. Bceause you keep spamming me, can you just let me breath and take my time. It's okay, still my fault.  Just remember, I love you. Aku tak suka bila kau paksa paksa aku. Aku mintak maaf. I am so sorry. And yah, I do like other guy. I don't know why. Semuanya dengan tiba tiba. He came at the right time or wrong time idk. We used to contact and play games together.I do miss both of you. And of course he knew about us. The day when I broke up with you, he asked me "mesti fee sayang dia lagi kan" then I jawab je la tipu lah kalau cakap tak sayang. Hahahaha.why suddenly I feel like crying. Oh god...kenapa berat sangat semua ni. I do like him the way he treat me. And he is soft spoken. There is different between like and love. Dah besar, boleh tahu sendiri right. Entah, tetiba teringat. Ehsan tannya, "feee kalau ehsan nak panggil fee fifi boleh tak? Ehsan rasa nama tu comel"  huh..I miss both of you. What can I do. And ehsan asked me this one question..ehsan tanya fee kena jujur. And I dah jujur pun. But entah lah? Tak faham lah. And now I let both of you pergi. It's so fucking hard. Nak buat macam mana right. Its life. You need to face it. I know I can do it. I am strong enough hehehe :)

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