Yes. I have lose. I've fallen in love with the guy that I used to like before. I tried so hard not to fall for him but i cant. I just cant ergh. Yeah I do try to let him go but guess what, he came. How can I? I felt nothing at first but then I just realized that I miss him so bad. I've been waiting days by days and almost give up but yeah I still cant. Maybe because he is a man. He's matured. I still remember his ayat, "kita ni dah besar bukan budak budak lagi" tersentap kejap haha. We used to play game together as usual. He do asked me "fee rindu esan kan" ya Allah eshan fee rindu sangat kat esan. But I didn't tell him la I miss him. Well, dont you know me, why I need to admit lol. He keep asking me the same question, and my answer still no la. Till he said "yeke, takpe la, kali ni esan betul betul merajuk" hahaha. Haih, I like it when he said "takpe la ok je" macam lembut gila do cara dia cakap, serius. He video called me, damn he looks so sexy but too bad I forgot to screenshot ergh. But....I feel like I shouldn't fall for him. Cause he do force me this one thing. Err you know I cant if people keep forcing me even he said he is not. When I say no that means no hm. Im scared if banana fruit 2 times. I dont want the same thing happen again. And after that day, he dont even contact me. But today, he is here. Playing game again with me. I off mic, But he didn't off mic so I can hear his voice. Why you turn on mic...my tears almost fall down when I heard your voice but I keep hold my tears. And he said "hi awak" so I just on my mic and say "hmm" and he said "tak nak layan dah ke takpe la" and me still hmmmmm. I cant even say a words. I want to cry. And he sent chat "rindu fee" arghhhh. So many times he say like that. And finally my tears fall down. I miss him so much. It hurts me so bad. It hurts when you cant even describe your own feelings. I have no one to tell. So here the place. If I tell anyone, everyone will put blame on me. The fuck, you guys can wear my shoes then you will know why this fucking things happen. Your life your choice. Oh btw, selamat menyambut ramadhan. Time flies so fast. Ok see ya

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